Chapter 8

He answered obediently and turned me around. As I leaned my back against his chest and spread my legs wide, a hot, thick length pushed its way into the void that had felt so empty.

“Ugh…!”

“You’re so soft… hnn, but the pressure is still just as tight…”

“Ah… ugh, ugh…”

As his sex pushed all the way in, I felt his hands supporting the back of my knees, and my hips lifted into the air. He moved off the bed, holding me up, and began to thrust.

“Ah! Ah! Aang!”

The sensation of being thrusted upward and then dropping back down into thin air repeated. Behind my high-pitched cries, his groans hid and tickled my ears. He kept whispering “Iel” and “I love you” over and over again.

After being shaken mindlessly for a long time, he showed signs of climax and flipped me over onto the bed. He pressed his body against my back, crushing me into the mattress until it dipped deep. Soon, we reached the climax together.

“Ughhh…!”

“Ugh…!”

The pleasure surged to the top of my head and transformed into a heat that felt like it was exploding through my entire body. My mind felt like it was shattering into pieces, and my vision turned a hazy white.

For a moment, I forgot who I was and became nothing but the biggest fool in the world.

“I love you. I love you, Iel.”

Felix’s calm confession in that state made my lips open of their own accord, without my will. Intoxicated by some indescribable emotion, I ended up letting out a half-crying voice,

“I love you too… I love you too.”

“I love you.”

I had been staring blankly at the ceiling when I thought, ‘I’m ruined,’ at the sound of Felix’s voice whispering as he pulled me into his arms.

Now that the day had fully broken, none of the excitement from the dawn remained. If this was an emotion that would evaporate so futilely, wouldn’t it be reasonable that the words I’d uttered while intoxicated by that emotion should evaporate as well?

“I love you?”

But Felix, who should have left it as nothing, insisted on dragging it back out now that I was sober, wanting to extract some kind of confirmation from me.

“Hmm?”

I couldn’t say anything to him as he urged for an answer. So, I just closed my eyes tightly and pretended not to hear. Felix began to nibble on the edge of my ear.

“Why won’t you say it back? You clearly said you loved me.”

I couldn’t hear him. I couldn’t hear anything. As I continued to pretend I didn’t know, Felix got annoyed and grabbed my breasts tightly to force my attention. I instinctively scowled at the touch that was painful enough to hurt a little, but I stuck to my act of ignorance. Felix bit my shoulder lightly.

No matter how I looked at it, I judged it to have been a mistake. Should I just say it was empty talk?

I had meant it in that moment, but now that it was morning, I wasn’t sure. I began to get confused about whether I had just lost my mind and uttered nonsense. No, in truth, my feelings didn’t matter. Nothing would change anyway.

I was just worried that those words from the dawn had given Felix useless hope, or conversely, had become a shackle around his neck.

I couldn’t promise Felix anything. I didn’t want to change him to suit me, either. Because I couldn’t take responsibility for that change. Before, and even now, I only wanted a light relationship.

So, if I could take back the words from the dawn, I wanted to. I didn’t want to bind him with words like “I love you.” I shouldn’t, either.

I don’t expect anything even if I hear such words, but who knows about Felix? I didn’t want to hurt him. I just wanted to finish our relationship with a slightly regretful goodbye after having a fun time.

Felix’s fingers began to circle my nipples this time. I groaned slightly and pushed him away with force.

“Stop… I have to get up.”

“Tch…”

He made a dissatisfied sound and obediently pulled his hand back. However, just as I’d barely stepped off the bed and stood on my legs, he suddenly pulled my waist from behind. I was shoved back down onto the bed, and I looked back. He rested his chin on my shoulder and asked.

“Shall we wash together?”

“No, it’ll take too long, and I don’t like that.”

I added that I had a set time for work and pushed him away. Felix showed signs of reluctance but backed off as if he had no choice.

I washed first, then prepared breakfast while Felix showered. After we ate together, I dressed for work and threw on my coat, but even until then, Felix sat in the chair in light clothes, showing no sign of moving.

“Aren’t you putting on your coat?”

“Why?”

“What do you mean ‘why’? We have to go together.”

“I don’t have anything to do today, though?”

“…?”

“…?”

We stared at each other for a moment and tilted our heads almost simultaneously.

“Aren’t you going to the inn?”

“I don’t have anything to do there.”

He propped his chin on his hand and said, “Besides, if I try to help, you’ll just reject me anyway, right?”

“No, that’s not it. You have to find a place to stay.”

“Why?”

“What do you mean ‘why’…? This is my house. You need to have your own lodging.”

At that, Felix let out a deep sigh.

“Iel.”

“Yes.”

“Usually, when you’re in a foreign land and you have a close acquaintance, it’s best to rely on them if possible.”

“What?”

“You can get information through a local, and above all, it’s a gain since you save on accommodation costs. The acquaintance provides a place to stay, the guest helps out with some minor chores around the house, and they help each other out living like that. And we’re lovers, aren’t we? Surely we’re much closer than just ‘acquaintances’?”

Felix shrugged nonchalantly, claiming that him staying here was only natural. I was a bit dumbfounded.

“That depends on the homeowner’s permission first. I’ve never given permission. And I won’t give it, either.”

At my refusal, Felix crossed his arms and said unhappily.

“Iel, think about it carefully. The loafer you almost went home with yesterday is currently staying at Yumir’s inn. If I go there right now and happen to run into that guy, I don’t think anything pleasant will happen. Wouldn’t that be a hindrance to your work?”

“I trust that you won’t make things difficult for me.”

“You trust me? Even though you didn’t trust me when I said I’d return? You’re a liar.”

“I even got an apology from him. Why would you bother picking a fight?”

In truth, the guest had a good personality, so he apologized first and finished it cleanly. If he had been someone with a bit more pride, it might have become quite an uncomfortable situation.

And I didn’t think that incident was anyone’s fault in the first place. It was just that our situations were different.

But Felix seemed to think he was the most aggrieved party, and perhaps because of that, he still had an extremely grumpy expression on his face.

“Fights are usually picked because you’re in a bad mood. The reason is made up afterward.”

“That man is one of the group guests. If you start a fight for no reason, you—being alone—will be the one to suffer more.”

“You only know that if you try.”

“Fel…”

I called his name, hoping he wouldn’t be tiresome from the morning. Felix softened his expression slightly.

“That’s why I’m choosing not to even look at him. If I could have my way, I wouldn’t even want you to go to work. But I’m holding back because you would hate that.”

“But the thing is, I also hate you settling into my house like this.”

“Even if I got lodging, I’d generally try to sleep with you at night anyway, so wouldn’t there be even less reason to stay separately? You’d also feel more relieved and comfortable having sex at home than in an inn room, wouldn’t you?”

“…You’re really shameless. It’s like I’m keeping a kept man.”

I sighed and rubbed my face with my hands.

“Hey, I don’t plan on living so incompetently that I can’t even earn a meal,” came his gruff retort, but I was already feeling like I’d been saddled with half a headache.

“Fine. You can stay here until the day the group guests leave. But after that, you have to leave obediently. I’m not the type to bring people into my house, so I’m uncomfortable just from the presence of another person.”

“You?”

“What about me?”

“…No, nothing.”

Looking at me with an inscrutable face, Felix returned to a casual expression and said,

“Well, let’s talk about that when the time comes.”

“You’re being so subtle about it…”

“Don’t you have to go to work?”

He took a pocket watch out of his pocket, showed it to me, and grinned. It was annoying to see, but if the conversation got any longer, I’d be the one losing out, so I decided to back down for now.